I walked into the first night of TT, never having meditated before. We started with a meditation to ask ourselves on several different levels why we chose the teacher training path. I was shocked and amazed at how much information I learned about myself and my purpose through this simple, yet profound exercise. I was in need of much more that I had imagined, and I had so much inside of me to share with the world.
Over the next few months, I learned all about yoga philosophy, asana (the yoga postures), breathing (pranayama) and meditation. I began to feel myself open slightly. Each time we met, the bonds I formed with my “tribe” of fellow students grew, and the teachers in the program held the space for us all to open and blossom in our own way, and at our own pace.
The largest transformation came for me at the silent retreat held toward the end of the program. It was the piece I was most apprehensive about, as I was so guarded and set in my ways… how would I deal with 3 days of silence away from my family and the outside world? Through 3 days of meditation, asana, and sitting with my true self, my levy officially broke. Everything that I had walled up inside of me flowed out. There was no stopping it. And it was scary. But the most beautiful thing came from it. Once it’s out, there is space left to breathe. And there’s nothing to be ashamed or scared of. For the first time, I was truly loving myself. This was an essential part of my path. How could I ever love my students or help them love themselves without first embracing me?
The program is masterfully written and is absolutely beneficial to all who embark on this journey. Nothing forced or contrived --just a space to learn and grow, and to become a knowledgeable teacher, should that be your goal. I now truly love the person I am, and am not afraid to share myself with my students, and the world.
Cara Unrue is a mentor in the Yoga on High 200 Hour Teacher Training and a teacher at Grow Yoga. To learn more about our upcoming 200 Hour Teacher Training beginning this March, join us at one of our free information sessions or email firstname.lastname@example.org.
Tuesday, March 1 from 7:30p to 8:30a at he Teacher Training Institute
Sunday, March 13 from 1:15 to 2:15p at Yoga on High